2 months ago
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Do I request any? No it’s good but I someway consciousness I americium the lone Indian pistillate successful the satellite oregon atleast successful USA with zero friends.No parties oregon anything.No get togethers..for maine it is much of a adjacent unit now.
I person ne'er felt the request to marque friends successful India.I person immoderate household oregon idiosyncratic oregon the different to talk.Plus yea..one oregon 2 friends I had retired of zillions of people..
I person to notation that I person a past of atrocious toxic friendships.Somehow I happened to conscionable women who utilized to either predominate oregon beryllium blunt and large to maine oregon won’t adjacent see me.Else if by luck I get on with someone..they permission the authorities oregon country! Am I cursed oregon what?? I americium serious.
Imagine being successful a state similar USA,someone who had a bullied past - toxic friendships,plus an introvert ..how hard it should beryllium marque friends??
right present I joined immoderate hobby classes,a occupation etc to support maine occupied.
Honestly much than having friends I consciousness similar thing is incorrect with maine if I don’t person friends.Sure friendships marque beingness beauteous but it is not happening to me
I precocious came backmost from India and my bestie had introduced to maine to her fittingness radical immoderate years backmost and I was blessed having a bully clip with them erstwhile I spell determination but bully luck for me..those friends liked maine and my bestie had immoderate rift with them.She forced maine to take ..her oregon them!
Big fight..but past I told her they are her friends aft each and I won’t immoderate betwixt her and them.so that’s over.
Today wherefore the above? My parent successful instrumentality is with me.She had observed immoderate neighbors and my cosister who has a societal group. She told maine “I wonderment wherefore u don’t person immoderate friends oregon group.It is truthful weird”…
weird?? Not having friends oregon societal group..honestly it enactment maine off..not coz of the remark but that is simply a trigger for me..
I see myself polite and respectful and adjacent successful my bureau they said that..even successful IL I deliberation I person been bully and don’t get into galore arguments oregon disrespectful words…
It’s my quality to beryllium careful..
Honestly if determination are galore women similar me..I americium good being this way…I don’t request friends but it’s much similar a adjacent pressure..am I going to extremity up oregon dice lonely?
I consciousness similar americium the lone Indian pistillate successful usa who does not person immoderate friend..
bluntly asking for immoderate consoling words..but truth..
